Should I stay or should I go
5 years ago
So serious
I guess it is kinda hard for people to take me seriously. I understand I guess, who could take a guy who's playful and jokes around seriously? Nevertheless, I like being joyful. =)
I just found out
Just a thought
I reckon that if I brush my teeth using my left hand everyday, soon I'll be ambidextrous.
vuvu
Most of my posts are short. Probably should just throw them in facebook, but one of the reasons why I post in this blog is because barely anyone reads it. Let's me express myself without letting the whole world know. Not that I have much to express anyway.
I feel better now, took some meds. Still waiting for a reply from RnH~
I shall go watch some football now. =)
I feel better now, took some meds. Still waiting for a reply from RnH~
I shall go watch some football now. =)
you know
I actually think he'll do pretty well in the industry. Maybe some attitude issues but he's hardworking and passionate. I think he'll succeed. Good luck to him. Some of us might fall, some will rise but in the end as long as we work hard and do our best i think we'll do just fine. I actually really want to see a few people who've been hardworking and persistent succeed after we graduate. Weeeeee~
21
yea, I guess it's the year the 1989 peeps turn 21.
The date is 10th April 2010 and some dude name Bryan Lee Ming Tian turns 21 today. Anyway, I guess I could say a bunch of things about him. Tell everyone how awesome he is and crap like that but I'll just try and make it short. He's a good friend, and old friend and most probably a friend for life. =)
Happy birthday Bryan and God bless! May your day be a joyful one. =)
The date is 10th April 2010 and some dude name Bryan Lee Ming Tian turns 21 today. Anyway, I guess I could say a bunch of things about him. Tell everyone how awesome he is and crap like that but I'll just try and make it short. He's a good friend, and old friend and most probably a friend for life. =)
Happy birthday Bryan and God bless! May your day be a joyful one. =)
wahahahaha
I deleted all the crap on my desktop. Totally deleted my whole Portfolio Presentation folder. I am satisfied now. So clean! =D Off to bed!
I can't stand a dirty desktop. Files and folders thrown everywhere.
I can't stand the recycle bin. It must be emptied.
I can't stand unused icons. They must be deleted or moved somewhere else.
I can't stand a fully utilized hard disk. Hate that red bar that shows you're using too much space.
I can't stand any program crashing. Especially Adobe.
That said,
because I can't stand a dirty desktop, I often clean it up and lose important files. Simply deleting files, thinking they must be some trash which isn't important.
because I can't stand the recycle bin, I always empty it. No matter what's inside. Lose important files too.
because I can't stand unused icons, I delete them. No worry there. =D
because I can't a fully utilized hard disk, I have 2 hard disks. Both 1 TB. Wahahaha....not yet reached even 50% usage.
because I can't stand any programs crashing, I have a love hate relationship with After Effects and Flash. The two programs which crash most frequently.
Anyway, my desktop is supahhhhhhh dirty now. But I'll tahan....I hope.....Wait for after submission then only clean. TAHAN!!!! After I ter-delete any important files. DIE! Tomorrow presentation. Bleh....
I can't stand the recycle bin. It must be emptied.
I can't stand unused icons. They must be deleted or moved somewhere else.
I can't stand a fully utilized hard disk. Hate that red bar that shows you're using too much space.
I can't stand any program crashing. Especially Adobe.
That said,
because I can't stand a dirty desktop, I often clean it up and lose important files. Simply deleting files, thinking they must be some trash which isn't important.
because I can't stand the recycle bin, I always empty it. No matter what's inside. Lose important files too.
because I can't stand unused icons, I delete them. No worry there. =D
because I can't a fully utilized hard disk, I have 2 hard disks. Both 1 TB. Wahahaha....not yet reached even 50% usage.
because I can't stand any programs crashing, I have a love hate relationship with After Effects and Flash. The two programs which crash most frequently.
Anyway, my desktop is supahhhhhhh dirty now. But I'll tahan....I hope.....Wait for after submission then only clean. TAHAN!!!! After I ter-delete any important files. DIE! Tomorrow presentation. Bleh....
another
Don't really like thinking about titles for my posts. I find it rather annoying and frustrating.
Anyway, I think my brain has this auto-trash button. That's why I talk trash I guess. There are like so many ideas or things I would like to say or not say. A lot of times when I'm listening to someone talk or watching something, I would suddenly get this funny thought in my mind or some kind of revelation I would suppose. And when that thought comes to mind, my brain presses this auto-trash button and my mouth opens. Thus releasing a continuous flow of crap which I presume some might find funny yet most find annoying.
In my lifelong effort to just shut up, I've come to realize that I probably will never succeed. Not that I'm really serious about being a quiet dude and minding my own business. I really do find quiet people very mysterious and so much more interesting. Makes me want to dig out their brains. What are they thinking? How can they just shut up for such long periods of time? Do they have some kind of super power? I'd like to be quiet for once. Well of course there are times I am quiet, for what reasons I do not know. I'm not this uncontrollable talking machine. Ah yes, I'm quiet when I meet strangers. Most new people would think I'm shy. Just the way I'm built I guess.
Sometimes, you just blabber continuously till you don't even know what you're talking about. Then, you say something you didn't mean, or more like something that you would regret in the next few minutes. That's why they always say think before you act.....or speak. Whatever it is. I don't think that much when I'm talking. Just press the auto-trash button and words start flowing out from my mouth. But I guess everything has their pros and cons. Talking is fun sometimes. Livens up the situation.
Probably when I'm down or emo I might be quiet. Actually no, I'd rather talk to someone about it. I'm rarely sad though. Of course I go through many negative emotions like others do but I don't think I show much sadness. Anger yes, sadness....not really. I guess I'm blessed to be happy.
Maybe I should write more then I won't talk as much. Yea, maybe. But no harm making noises right? Not trying to change who I am or anything. It's just that thing you know, "Hey! What if I was that quiet dude over there? Maybe I'll be so awesomely silent, I might have some fun!" Intriguing I guess. But could you really imagine me being a quiet boy? Nah.....personally I think it takes too much effort to shut up. But thinking before speaking is a good thing. Yea....that's good I suppose.
Anyway, it seems it has become a habit that I write my posts in the wee hours of the morning. Now that this post is done, I'm off to bed. Goodnight! =)
Anyway, I think my brain has this auto-trash button. That's why I talk trash I guess. There are like so many ideas or things I would like to say or not say. A lot of times when I'm listening to someone talk or watching something, I would suddenly get this funny thought in my mind or some kind of revelation I would suppose. And when that thought comes to mind, my brain presses this auto-trash button and my mouth opens. Thus releasing a continuous flow of crap which I presume some might find funny yet most find annoying.
In my lifelong effort to just shut up, I've come to realize that I probably will never succeed. Not that I'm really serious about being a quiet dude and minding my own business. I really do find quiet people very mysterious and so much more interesting. Makes me want to dig out their brains. What are they thinking? How can they just shut up for such long periods of time? Do they have some kind of super power? I'd like to be quiet for once. Well of course there are times I am quiet, for what reasons I do not know. I'm not this uncontrollable talking machine. Ah yes, I'm quiet when I meet strangers. Most new people would think I'm shy. Just the way I'm built I guess.
Sometimes, you just blabber continuously till you don't even know what you're talking about. Then, you say something you didn't mean, or more like something that you would regret in the next few minutes. That's why they always say think before you act.....or speak. Whatever it is. I don't think that much when I'm talking. Just press the auto-trash button and words start flowing out from my mouth. But I guess everything has their pros and cons. Talking is fun sometimes. Livens up the situation.
Probably when I'm down or emo I might be quiet. Actually no, I'd rather talk to someone about it. I'm rarely sad though. Of course I go through many negative emotions like others do but I don't think I show much sadness. Anger yes, sadness....not really. I guess I'm blessed to be happy.
Maybe I should write more then I won't talk as much. Yea, maybe. But no harm making noises right? Not trying to change who I am or anything. It's just that thing you know, "Hey! What if I was that quiet dude over there? Maybe I'll be so awesomely silent, I might have some fun!" Intriguing I guess. But could you really imagine me being a quiet boy? Nah.....personally I think it takes too much effort to shut up. But thinking before speaking is a good thing. Yea....that's good I suppose.
Anyway, it seems it has become a habit that I write my posts in the wee hours of the morning. Now that this post is done, I'm off to bed. Goodnight! =)
a post
Time: 2:42am
Date: 25th March 2010
At this particular moment, I should be doing my blocking plus for my weight lift assignment but as usual procrastination has overwhelmed me. It feels as though there's so much focus on the final project and also my latest craze on ActionScript that Animation class doesn't seem to be one of the main priorities. Of course, I always want to improve my skills in animation. Last semester was all about animation. Always talking about how we should prioritize, which class is more important and which class deserves more time and focus.
Unsurprisingly, my final project has taken the no.1 priority. It is of course like the most important project in all the 3 years of our studies here in The One Academy. Definitely everyone's priority should be their final project. So what comes in as priority no.2? Portfolio presentation I guess. Not that I really like it, but it seems like I'm putting quite a bit of effort into it. Mainly because of scripting. Javascript, Actionscript or whatever crap that gives me headaches. Wasted lots of time on that.
I should be focusing on my animation right now. It is what I want to do in the future. Just don't really have the "semangat". Probably because of laziness. Of course the joy of animating is still there, though not that evident when it comes to the blocking stages. Polishing is much more fun. Seeing the end product is even more satisfying. You could say I have the drive when it comes to the polishing stages, where everything seems to be coming into place. Starting out? Blocking? Not so exciting. Yea, it's important and stuff but it is kinda hard to get yourself going. But nonetheless, I still work hard and try my best to achieve the best possible result.
I'm not really complaining or anything. I just felt like blogging. So I just typed whatever came to mind. So this topic came to mind, and yea, I'm writing about it.
Anyway, I've also come to the realization that my English has deteriorated quite a bit. Haven't been reading much, not that I've ever read much my entire life. Haven't been writing much. Blogging is considered writing I suppose but most of my posts are one liners. And I haven't played Scrabble in awhile. Wonder whether I should pick it up again.
Oh well. It's almost 3. I better get back to work. Enough crap talk. Tata. Take care =)
Date: 25th March 2010
At this particular moment, I should be doing my blocking plus for my weight lift assignment but as usual procrastination has overwhelmed me. It feels as though there's so much focus on the final project and also my latest craze on ActionScript that Animation class doesn't seem to be one of the main priorities. Of course, I always want to improve my skills in animation. Last semester was all about animation. Always talking about how we should prioritize, which class is more important and which class deserves more time and focus.
Unsurprisingly, my final project has taken the no.1 priority. It is of course like the most important project in all the 3 years of our studies here in The One Academy. Definitely everyone's priority should be their final project. So what comes in as priority no.2? Portfolio presentation I guess. Not that I really like it, but it seems like I'm putting quite a bit of effort into it. Mainly because of scripting. Javascript, Actionscript or whatever crap that gives me headaches. Wasted lots of time on that.
I should be focusing on my animation right now. It is what I want to do in the future. Just don't really have the "semangat". Probably because of laziness. Of course the joy of animating is still there, though not that evident when it comes to the blocking stages. Polishing is much more fun. Seeing the end product is even more satisfying. You could say I have the drive when it comes to the polishing stages, where everything seems to be coming into place. Starting out? Blocking? Not so exciting. Yea, it's important and stuff but it is kinda hard to get yourself going. But nonetheless, I still work hard and try my best to achieve the best possible result.
I'm not really complaining or anything. I just felt like blogging. So I just typed whatever came to mind. So this topic came to mind, and yea, I'm writing about it.
Anyway, I've also come to the realization that my English has deteriorated quite a bit. Haven't been reading much, not that I've ever read much my entire life. Haven't been writing much. Blogging is considered writing I suppose but most of my posts are one liners. And I haven't played Scrabble in awhile. Wonder whether I should pick it up again.
Oh well. It's almost 3. I better get back to work. Enough crap talk. Tata. Take care =)
Invader
Apparently I have been invaded by a terrapin and his 6 little fish minions. I have to keep them alive for the next 2 weeks.
It was quite a shock when I saw the terrapin. I thought it was gonna be that small small still young terrapin but the terrapin that showed up my doorstep wasn't that small. Totally can demolish Jared's turtle. But nonetheless, I have accepted it into my family and I'm being a real good owner! I fed it! Twice! In one day! Though I should be careful not to overfeed it, if that is possible. Just trying to make it like me. I think it's kinda scared of me right now. Each time I pass by, he pops his head inside his shell. Well not totally in his shell. But it retracts when it sees me. Probably thinks I'm this big ugly predator.
The terrapin, as I said earlier brought his 6 little fish minions. In a different tank of course. Don't know what kinda fishies they are, but they're small and harmless. Like minions are suppose to be. Probably has low attributes. Unlike the terrapin who has achieved ultimate armor and has vicious speed bite. It can't beat me though. I have been taught the way to render all its abilities useless. Just turn him upside down and he's helpless. Ahahaha.
Anyway, I won't be putting up a picture of it. Invasion of privacy. That's about it. God bless. Take care. =)
It was quite a shock when I saw the terrapin. I thought it was gonna be that small small still young terrapin but the terrapin that showed up my doorstep wasn't that small. Totally can demolish Jared's turtle. But nonetheless, I have accepted it into my family and I'm being a real good owner! I fed it! Twice! In one day! Though I should be careful not to overfeed it, if that is possible. Just trying to make it like me. I think it's kinda scared of me right now. Each time I pass by, he pops his head inside his shell. Well not totally in his shell. But it retracts when it sees me. Probably thinks I'm this big ugly predator.
The terrapin, as I said earlier brought his 6 little fish minions. In a different tank of course. Don't know what kinda fishies they are, but they're small and harmless. Like minions are suppose to be. Probably has low attributes. Unlike the terrapin who has achieved ultimate armor and has vicious speed bite. It can't beat me though. I have been taught the way to render all its abilities useless. Just turn him upside down and he's helpless. Ahahaha.
Anyway, I won't be putting up a picture of it. Invasion of privacy. That's about it. God bless. Take care. =)
Stuff
Now that I've proven that I'm alive. Let's go on to the next topic. The future.
Well I've been thinking quite a bit about the future and places to work at. Talked to Kelvin about what good studios there are. Had the trip to Rhythm & Hues in Cyberjaya. Seems like its around this time everyone starts thinking about their future job. Just one and half semesters to go and then we're out in the market trying to get big studios to take us as slaves....I mean hire us. Well, I've kinda decided that I would want to work straight away rather than continuing my studies. Degree or whatever. Feels like the right thing to do. Then it comes down to planning. How long do I want to work? Where do I want to work? Am I looking to further my studies after a few years of work? What's my main goal? Will this studio help me achieve my goal? Will I improve? Am I even capable of getting a job in such a studio?
Questions questions questions. Good questions I would think but suddenly it feels so overwhelming that in a few months I would be applying for jobs and stuff like that. I still feel like a kid. Sometimes I still think I'm 16. Wonderful age. The working world seems like a place for adults though I'm quite sure I'll handle it somehow. Everyone does. But I doubt that I'll grow up then either. Probably be a kid for the rest of my life. I don't find that a problem but there are those times where you think, "Hey, you're suppose to be a matured adult by now." But in the end, I think being a matured kid would be my best option.
It seems I have strayed off topic. Anyway, not rushing any decisions. Just keep on working at improving my skills and enhancing my portfolio. Just that it sometimes overwhelms you. Probably should take a break and stop thinking too much. It's still really early to decide anything anyway, but it's good to plan ahead. =)
Well I've been thinking quite a bit about the future and places to work at. Talked to Kelvin about what good studios there are. Had the trip to Rhythm & Hues in Cyberjaya. Seems like its around this time everyone starts thinking about their future job. Just one and half semesters to go and then we're out in the market trying to get big studios to take us as slaves....I mean hire us. Well, I've kinda decided that I would want to work straight away rather than continuing my studies. Degree or whatever. Feels like the right thing to do. Then it comes down to planning. How long do I want to work? Where do I want to work? Am I looking to further my studies after a few years of work? What's my main goal? Will this studio help me achieve my goal? Will I improve? Am I even capable of getting a job in such a studio?
Questions questions questions. Good questions I would think but suddenly it feels so overwhelming that in a few months I would be applying for jobs and stuff like that. I still feel like a kid. Sometimes I still think I'm 16. Wonderful age. The working world seems like a place for adults though I'm quite sure I'll handle it somehow. Everyone does. But I doubt that I'll grow up then either. Probably be a kid for the rest of my life. I don't find that a problem but there are those times where you think, "Hey, you're suppose to be a matured adult by now." But in the end, I think being a matured kid would be my best option.
It seems I have strayed off topic. Anyway, not rushing any decisions. Just keep on working at improving my skills and enhancing my portfolio. Just that it sometimes overwhelms you. Probably should take a break and stop thinking too much. It's still really early to decide anything anyway, but it's good to plan ahead. =)
As requested
I am updating my blog.
Wanted to post up a picture of me to show that i'm alive. This will do I suppose. Curi from facebook as always.
But yea, I'm alive. =) Just been busy.
Wanted to post up a picture of me to show that i'm alive. This will do I suppose. Curi from facebook as always.
But yea, I'm alive. =) Just been busy.
Fights
I used to get into stupid fights in school last time. Not real violent fights, but more like sudden surges of anger which result to a short fight. Of course I'm not that buff, not that big sized but I do remember getting pissed easily. The thing I'm wondering is why ain't I getting into any stupid fights in college?
In school, I used to fight with friends. Wondering why I don't fight anyone in college. I still remember I used to fight with pooi sing quite a bit. At the pondok there. For silly reasons I don't remember. Not like very frequent fights. Rare but stuff like these did happen. Hitting soo gee's balls after thinesh and soo gee won't shut up. I also think I hit Bryan on my birthday once. Not sure whether I hit him or I just got pissed at him. Note: I hit doesn't mean like whack blood all. I don't think I ever fought with Bryan though. Because he won't fight back. Peaceful dude. Everything is more mental with him I suppose. I think the main reason I did get into some fights was my temper. Say a little bit then get pissed already. But why don't I get into fights in college? No more temper? Dunno la. I think in school there's so much more to get annoyed and pissed at. College? Don't have that feeling. Well, I guess it's a good thing. Fights aren't anything good anyway.
Anyway, all the fights were innocent fights I would suppose. Nothing serious, just like get pissed, get into a bit of fight (very minor), and then everything okay.
Kinda miss school days.
In school, I used to fight with friends. Wondering why I don't fight anyone in college. I still remember I used to fight with pooi sing quite a bit. At the pondok there. For silly reasons I don't remember. Not like very frequent fights. Rare but stuff like these did happen. Hitting soo gee's balls after thinesh and soo gee won't shut up. I also think I hit Bryan on my birthday once. Not sure whether I hit him or I just got pissed at him. Note: I hit doesn't mean like whack blood all. I don't think I ever fought with Bryan though. Because he won't fight back. Peaceful dude. Everything is more mental with him I suppose. I think the main reason I did get into some fights was my temper. Say a little bit then get pissed already. But why don't I get into fights in college? No more temper? Dunno la. I think in school there's so much more to get annoyed and pissed at. College? Don't have that feeling. Well, I guess it's a good thing. Fights aren't anything good anyway.
Anyway, all the fights were innocent fights I would suppose. Nothing serious, just like get pissed, get into a bit of fight (very minor), and then everything okay.
Kinda miss school days.
Future
Well, I'm suppose to write about my future.
One of my lecturers want to know like what our goal is, our dream and stuff like that. And dang it, he said you can't just write I wanna be an animator. He wants something in-depth. I don't really like writing anymore, maybe that's why I have such short blog posts.
But nevertheless, I do actually have some sort of a plan which was in my head for a few months now. A plan for my future and stuff like that. You never know what you'll face and what obstacles you'll have to pass but I guess it's good to have a plan. At least you have a goal you want to achieve.
That said, there's a few things I have to do to reach my goal. One of them I think is that I have to be more friendly with strangers. You might or might not know that when it comes to meeting new people or strangers, I'm quite shy. I guess I need to improve on this because we all need networks and crap like that so its better to expand your network. Can't expand my network if I'm too shy. So yea, be a bit braver this year. =)
One of my lecturers want to know like what our goal is, our dream and stuff like that. And dang it, he said you can't just write I wanna be an animator. He wants something in-depth. I don't really like writing anymore, maybe that's why I have such short blog posts.
But nevertheless, I do actually have some sort of a plan which was in my head for a few months now. A plan for my future and stuff like that. You never know what you'll face and what obstacles you'll have to pass but I guess it's good to have a plan. At least you have a goal you want to achieve.
That said, there's a few things I have to do to reach my goal. One of them I think is that I have to be more friendly with strangers. You might or might not know that when it comes to meeting new people or strangers, I'm quite shy. I guess I need to improve on this because we all need networks and crap like that so its better to expand your network. Can't expand my network if I'm too shy. So yea, be a bit braver this year. =)
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